Again. Another night of video games till 5 am. Your excuse was "the game didn't let us save. We were very tired too but we just had to finish it". Wait. What? WHY did you HAVE to finish it? Would there be dire consequences? Would the world end? Would you get a fine? NO! There are no REAL LIFE CONSEQUENCES to you not finishing your freaking game!!! And on the other hand? Who's left with these lonely bouts of weekend mornings, wondering when all the things she's been promised will be fulfilled? When you fucking choose to spend hours like that, precious hours that I don't even have with you, with your best friend playing video games till 5 in the morning, HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO UNDERSTAND WITH OPEN ARMS AND TELL YOU THAT "YEAH BABY, IT'S OKAY, SLEEP TILL 4 PM, I'LL JUST DO ALL THESE THINGS BY MYSELF". I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!

It's really not cool that time and again, you so easily choose things over me. Time with your best friend doing unproductive things. Yeah, once in awhile is fine, but not when you've fucking promised to do something the next day. PROMISED. ACTUALLY PROMISED. NOT JUST AGREED TO BUT PROMISED. Do I consider it love? And then you say "you should know that I love you anyway" but how can I do that when you're not doing anything that shows me you love me? You do all the easy things, like kiss me, hug me.. say "I love you" but as soon as it gets a little bit tough, you just complain. Or shut down. What means more? The easy things you do for someone or the hard things? It's not as though I enjoy doing all the dishes or cooking every night. I guess I don't really MIND it but it's not something I would jump up and do, but I do it because I love you and I know that would make your life easier and you'd be happier! I've said it before. I'm not your maid, yet I've not really gotten in your face about you not doing your part around the house! IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR! YOU TALK ABOUT COMPROMISES, BUT WHERE ARE YOURS?!

I'm really up to my neck with it. I'm about to completely shut down in frustration. Can't talk because I'll yell, can't yell because I won't make any sense. So what's my only option? To shut down and not give half a damn about what you're doing.